Back with a Vengeance

I'm back! So I went on a little HUGE hiatus. But I am back and I am motivated again. I am not going to make any plans, because I don't want to fail. Failing is what depresses me. So I will just hope to get up each morning and have the motivation to do better than the day before. You know what kills me? NIGHTS!

Anyone else have the problem where you just do so good all day long... you eat right, you drink lots of water, but then night comes and your husband gets home and all you want to do is eat CRAP. Snack snack snack! it gets to be about 10pm and I start needing wanting something sweet or salty. Drives me crazy. But I have no self control so I always give in. BOO! Maybe the solution would be just go to bed at 10... but I am such a night person, and night time is the only time I get my hubby ALL TO MYSELF. So it would be hard to give that up. Oh what's a girl to do?

I have put on more weight. I am now 20 pounds heavier than what I was after I had Jake 10 months ago. This is NOT okay. So that ads 20 to the 50 I already wanted to lose. Aye aye aye!

New weight loss goal overall----70 POUNDS

weight loss goal each week---- AT LEAST 2 pounds

At this rate it will take me 35 weeks to lose my weight. IF I stay on track. so that is like 7 months. which will be April of 2013. Oh boy. If you are reading this right now... COMMENT. I need all the encouragement I can get.

Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead

Oh my... talk about inspirational! This movie is a MUST see. I watched it today while Tyler was at work, now I will have to have him watch it with me again. He needs to see this.

If you haven't seen it, it is basically all about juicing and the positives of getting in those fruits and veggies. And I personally am not a huge veggie eater. I like cucumbers, and bell peppers and things like that, but there are so many different veggies that I would not even think twice about buying at the store. juicing is a great way to get these into your system quick.

Now I would not go as drastic as him. He did nothing but juice for every meal for 60 days. He lost 90 something pounds in 2 MONTHS! holy smokes. I am not fat... I am not obese. I am just overweight. I want to lose 50 pounds and then go from there. I just know that I am NOT happy the way i look right now. I know no one will really read this, so I have posted a picture of me. I am not proud of this picture, and that is why I have posted it. I wanted that visual reminder that I hate my body right now. Not only do I hate the way I look, but I hate the way I feel. I want to be healthy. I want to look healthy. That is the main reason I am doing this. I am a stay at home Mom, there is no excuse why I can't do a little each day, take some time out for myself each day to better myself and reach my goal. There is no excuse why I shouldn't be eating healthy. I want to teach my kids that veggies can be good!

Anyway, juicers can be very expensive so this is something that i will have to save up for to get a nice one. I believe in giving your body a rest every once in a while. Cleaning out all the toxins. So for now I will have to research another way to clean my body out.

GO WATCH THAT MOVIE.

7/20

I slept in a little longer today. got up about 930. I had my usual breakfast, but then it was go time. Day two, and I am sore. In places i didn't think I would be sore from running! in my abs? I guess that just gives me more motivation to keep going. Running really works your whole body, so that is a plus in my book!! Today was good. I did exactly what I did yesterday except I did it alone. Tyler and the kids stayed home. I just put my music in my ears and went. Oddly enough I felt like walking was harder than running today. Like I could feel my legs and feet getting more tired while I was walking but the only thing that got tired while I was running was my breathing. So if I could just get my lungs to get use to being worked that hard, I think I can actually become a RUNNER!

Total distance 5.3km in 39 minutes.

7/19

woke up at 830 this morning. Ate breakfast: honey bunches of oats with almond milk. packed up the kids in the jogger and walked to the track, then ran one lap, walked one lap, ran one lap, walked one lap, then walked home. I was tired. Pretty pathetic! Man, I can't wait till it is easy to run 10 miles.

this took me 41 mins.

First post

Okay, lets get one thing straight, at this point in my life, I DO NOT like exercising. I have never liked it. That's probably why I look the way I do right now. So this blog is going to be for me, for my personal records. I don't know if anyone will read it, but I don't really care. I need to make goals, and I need to record them so that I can see some sort of progress for myself.

I have never been much of a runner. I ran the required mile in PE but other than that nadda. But I am determined to LEARN to like it. We just moved into a new place, with a great neighborhood, and a track down the street. Now, I have started a new sleep pattern that I think will help me. These are my goals for the week: with there only being 3 days left haha

Run a half mile everyday this week. I know that that is not at anything at all, but I am just starting out... LAY OFF... haha. I will be walking the rest of the time. All in all this will be about 40 mins to the track and back. Then I am going to do an at home workout every other night... at least. I want to do it every night, but at the very least, every other night.

So there you have it.